Friday, July 16th 2010
Well, I’m back home from Bermuda AND as much as I didn’t want to leave the island…the more I am home the happier I get by being home and reconnecting with my friends here. I didn’t really write much while I was gone. My days were filled with enjoying every bit of Bermuda that I could…that included working out, reading, writing in my journal, & exploring the island. It was absolutely perfect! Heaven I may add..
I would find myself leaving in the morning roughly around 9:30 AM Bermuda time and wouldn’t find myself back in the room (other than to shower and get ready for the evening) until 12-1 am. Then I found myself editing videos for the blog until 3 am…by that time…writing my thoughts was farthest from my noggin.
As you may have noticed from my videos…I had an amazing time! I met some great people, and got a chance to do many things I never did before.
Some of the firsts for me during this trip were:
- First time I ever flew in a 767 (one of those planes I have only seen in the movies..the ones that have 3 rows of seats)
- First time I have ever traveled to another country by myself
- First time rode in public transit (The bus system)
- First time I ate turkish delight.
- First time I snorkeled
- First time I ever saw salt water fish in the actual ocean.
- First time I drank a Swizzle
- First time I have ever been in a Lighthouse.
- First time I climbed to the top of a Lighthouse.
- First time I ate rum cake.
- First time I sat in a room with people from Canada, Bermuda, Dubai, United States, & other countries I forgot.
- First time I swam in the Atlantic Ocean
- First time I ever slid down a slide in the Atlantic Ocean.
As you can imagine…these are only a few firsts that immediately come to my mind that I experienced this week…and it was awesome!
I started this blog because I was called to write about my life raising my children and teaching children with special needs. As many can imagine there is so much that goes into raising my family…and it is very easy for me as a single working mother to get caught up in a lifestyle completely absorbed in dr. appts, social security, medicaid, therapies, & and many other entities that follow raising my children. Those who know me…know that I am dedicated to them. With that dedication worry & fear can easily set in. However, at the end of the day…when they are asleep and the house is quiet… I am simply a woman who is 34 years old, who has big hopes & dreams, who wants to be loved, who wants an ever lasting relationship with someone who adores me & I them and who wants to make a difference to somebody, anybody, or everybody. Doesn’t every woman want this?
Now that my children are getting older and that they get to go to their Dad’s house during a majority of the summer months…I have chosen this time to really explore who I am by doing all the things that were on hold for so long. I have been raising children more than half of my life (started at 16 years of age).
One may wonder after watching my videos what traveling or meeting the people I do has to do with raising three children with special needs. AND to those people…I say: “This blog that I write, isn’t about one particular disability, it isn’t about coping, this is a blog simply about living”. I have learned about living through my children. They have been my teachers. I caught myself having a few fearful moments during this trip…which at the time caused me think about passing on opportunities of venturing out on my own…and then I thought about Taylor…and how she doesn’t like to be left out of anything and she would be up for anything…and then thought about how Erin told me she wanted to be a ballerina when she grew up and I realized that I can’t let fear get in the way. I have gotta show them they can do anything. I never let one opportunity pass. Not one. AND I enjoyed every minute of it.
So, this is why I make the videos. My intention is that a parent of a child with special needs may come across my blog someday…and may find hope for his/her child’s future and him/herself’s future through reading or watching. This is my hope. I am the lucky one!
Until Next Time,
E
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9:17 am
I’m on day 235 and all I can say is you truly amaze me. I completely understand the fear you must have had before going on your Bermuda trip, but you did it and the only thing I think you really need to do (next Summer) is go skydiving. Yes, skydiving
If you want to feel ultimate freedom, please consider giving it a try. I’m afraid of heights and flying, but I chose to do it on my 45th birthday because it was something I had always wanted to do when I was 16. Unfortunately, as time went on and I had my 2 kids at 19, I did exactly what you have done … I lost myself and let the fear set in. But the time came for me, as well, to reevaluate who I was and remember the things that, at one time in my life, were important to me … and skydiving came to mind. Trust me, by this time, I was scared to death to give it a try, but I watched a video of my son doing it and thought, okay, I think I can do this. I have never been happier in my life that I finally did something that I have been so afraid of for so long, because it took me back to a time in my life where that fear never existed. If skydiving isn’t something that intrigues you, that’s okay, but my point is, never give up on breaking those fear barriers down that you’ve built up over the years … and rightfully so. You are an amazing person and you deserve everything great that this life has to offer you so GO FOR IT!!! 