Friday, May 14th, 2010
I had a scheduled non-formal meeting this morning at 7am with Taylor’s teacher. The plan was that her and I were going to sit down and discuss some of the components and goals & objectives I would like Taylor to be working on in the next year. We wanted to have this ready for next weeks IEP. I had been planning for this meeting and showed up at 7am and found the Teacher had called in. I was never informed, therefore I wanted to speak to someone so I asked to speak to the Administrator that was over her, and he left me waiting for an hour. I needed to get to work myself, so I had to leave.
Needless to say, the day didn’t start off with a bang it started off with a noisy gong! I was feeling defeated. Feeling as if no one cared about my daughter. I definitely made my presence and point before I left the school and on the phone later (no worries, I am a Christian woman so I can’t go too crazy). Tuesday is our meeting….I am almost positive that we will not be able to get what needs to be done within that hour…but am excited to start it. I really want to get a great plan for Taylor’s future together. This could be a fun thing to do if we let it (at least I am going to believe this!)..
This week has been a challenging week for me. I am realizing that there is a future in front of us. AND, I have to be honest…I am truly scared to make the wrong decision for her. I really am. I want to her to be happy, healthy, & independent (what parent doesn’t). However, I absolutely have NO idea what that decision looks like or might be.
I went to the gym after work and Ian (my Trainer) worked me out so hard that during the workout I could feel the emotions wanting to gush out of me. In fact, when I got in the car and had a moment to myself all the anxiety, fear, frustration, & sadness came out and then I did the one thing I could think of to do AND that was to call my Mother!
The night ended much better. The kiddos and I went to see a Baseball Game. We had gotten free tickets through our church. It was great to be outside with them and it seemed every time we were turning our head, we found another friend. It was so great to feel the love and support around us. I need to make sure I remember this when I am feeling alone or defeated! There are many wonderful individuals that I have been blessed with in my life…they seem to be there right when I need them (or at least when God knows we do).
Until Next Time,
E
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